Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldnt...........

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way

.
She's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying she's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.

You get so giddy when you meet her eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care

.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that she's just a friend?

Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for her to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
so being her boy is an impossible wish... 

Darkness

Slowly drowning in my sorrow
Wishing things would be better tomorrow
Feeling like I am in an ocean of doubt and despair,
gradually sinking and gasping for air.
Knowing life is not a light switch you can flip on and off
Simply settling and accepting I have to carry on.
Trying to keep my sanity and composure intact
out of fear of how those close to me, might react.
Fears of inadequacy as a human, as a man, burry themselves deep in my head
As I make a foolish attempt to have a good night's rest in my lumpy bed.
The fact that there are others out there ten times better than I,
makes me afraid and let out defeated sigh.
Since it seems like things will always be this way,
its frustrating because I have to go through it day after day.
Yet, when my quandaries are more than I can bare,
I can at least take comfort in those who really care.
You know who you are, and so do I.
That knowledge keeps me from going over the edge, from giving up and giving in.
::sigh::

Look in My Eyes

Look in my eyes.

Tell me what they say.

Do they tell you my future?

Or just about today?

Can you see the tears I cry?

Well what about the pain I hide?

Or is it you just don’t care what’s inside.

All anyone ever sees

is the fake me I have to be.

But if that’s all you want to see

then you’ll never know

The real me.